Midian Journal.

well it was really ncie...and the first wedding i've ever been too!!! i had a really great time..well..most of the time i mean.


o i'm starting from the end of the day..i need to start from the start...well my day began like most..i woke up..brushed my teeth..took a shower...put on clothes...tucked the blankey back under Rek so he could stay sleeping..cause he's LAZY and headed to the den...

Seems Cez and Duke broke up..or soemthing...she jumps to more men then i can imagine it seems..least to me...

anyways that's not important...

so i leave the den and head to the pool hall, but no one is there..so i go back to the den and hang out with Ayami and Avonthen i headed home to get ready.  somehow i got talked into wearing high heels....and..i..i don't think i EVER will again...by the end of the night my toes and stuff were SOOO sore!!!

but it really was lovely...right..so i got my dress on and waved to Canis and Uncie Juicey, Uncle Janus and Rek as they headed out in the shiny vroom vroom doo dad.... and went to bother Kat.  we ended up going to the ceremony together and sat with Kyrie and Sayde and eventually Ashy when she got there.  here's a picture Cait gave me..she was taking photos with the other lady..i dunno her name...but they're real nice...



Linds and Calee were bridesmaids....and Uncie Juicey..Uncle Jnaus, Rek and even Uncle Craven were groomsmen!! it was really nice...though i'll admit..the priest man talked ALOT..but they were very pretty words too...

anyways so the ceremony ended and it was real nice hten Ashy, Sayde, Kat and i all headed to the reception.  thats when i saw her...Angel...the one who ran off with Daddy..i avoided her most of the night and had a really good time...i ate some food..and drank something called champergane...ya  ispelt that wrong,...o wells..and i even danced with Rek!!!

he left for a bit..to change and get the Canis' and Rena's gifts from home and isat down and munched o na cupcake...And of course Angel came over... Kat was outside with Calee so neither of them could come and help me..so i tried my best to keep my smile..cause it was a special day.. i told Angel about Mommy and she said she and daddy already knew....

i think...i think i lost all faith in my father when she said that.  he never called, never wrote..didn't care....some time...so..sometimes i wonder if things would ahve been different if mommy had died while he was aorund..or if he had died isntead...though right now...i think my mind has decided he is dead in a way...and thats probly for the best.

i started calling Ashy and Uncle Janus mom and dad anyways...and in all hoensty they've been a better family to me then Daddy and even mommy ever were..i feel awful saying that..but i feel like a real kid..err...semi adult..err..whatever i am.

anyways i need to start cooking Rek his dinner...i caught another bunny for us...and i'm getting better at cooking them jsut right...and no fires yet!!!

it's been two weeks, two whole entire weeks...two weeks since what ya might be askin...

two weeks ago..my daddy up and elft me with his ex...who gave birth to my ha;f sister recently....that was the first blow to my happy little kitty life... Reiyn and Angel took off on a boat to hte mainland taking my half sister Kazuko with them... here's the letter that ANGEl left me....that's why it Hurt..my dad didn't even tell me anything....and i'd probly have never known....

Dear Kas,
     I'm sorry it has happened this way but we thought it for the best. Your father and I have decided to leave Midian and start a new life as a family on the mainland. As you know your father hasn't been well and he felt it best for his own state of mind to get away to give him a chance to fully heal and get himself back to full strength emotionally, mentally and physically without the constant bad memories the city brought to him. He asked if I would join him with Kazuko and I could not refuse. You have always known my feelings for him and I want Kazuko to have the benefit of two parents that I never had. 
    I wish you well kitten, you have a good family behind you with the Pride and I know you will do well. Perhaps we will return in the future, when, I cannot say or even promise that we will. 
Be safe and well kitten.
Angel

after reading that i had a little mini breakdown...Rek found me sitting by Miss Rith's grave...where i usually go to think...i go there for a new reason now...but thats coming up...

i spent msot of the next week with Mommy...who was getting engaged to be married to Grif..Mitchell Mcmillan...she told me i'd get to be a flower girl...and toss rose petals....she'd picked out her maid of honour and brides maids...even started planning a lsit of invitees...but..i guess Fate is a cruel misstres as they say...

Mommy was also having her life threatened..she was worried ad wrote a will...and she turned out to have guessed right....Sunday..i think..a week after Daddy left...mommy was killed..murdered....crucified.... i lsot myself for a bit when i saw her body...jsut..lsot it...didn't help that Uncle Janus and Uncie Juicey had been badly hurt as well, nor that Canis was not in a very good state of health either.  so much for one night...

Cait found me and fixed me up..she sang to me and calmed me down...but..mommy was dead..so fat lotta good it did...but still...i had to carry on...she'd ahve wanted me to... Grif and Rek and everyone took real good care of me...Everyone was sad...Canis even put up a picture of Mommy i nhte pool hall..and hung up the sword she left him too.. he's good people he is...

Tober came with me to tell people stuff and give out the letters mommy left me...i like Tober....she's kinda like my sister....i mean..well..we are the same size and stuff...and..well..it doesnt matter....

then..Palm Sunday...it...it was awful...i can't remember all of it..the men in black...the ugly Taquidos guy....they came and...and ruiend everything....so..so much blood in hte church..mommy would have cried...they tried to hurt mommy's body..so..i jumped over it to keep her safe..but the explosion..yes EXPLOSION a pew came flying and i guess it got me i nhte head....i lsot all my memories for a bit..but...with alot of help and painkillers..i have msot of them back....

Mommy got burried by Miss Rith...she's gots a nice tombstone..with hte 7 rites of Bushido..mommy always tried to live by them...

aand i SWEAR..if i ever get my hands any where near Hookum and Serp...thats who Grif said ruiend hte funeral AND apparently who killed mommy....i will END them....i will destroy them..i will make them BEG me to kill them in hte end....

((she rereads that last part a few tiems...))

wow...i spend too much time with Rek....